Life continues.... equivalent exchange / 3:11 am

Wee.... i have my japanese cuisine again!! and this is like the 5th day in a row. God i'm kinda sick of sashimi but i think i'm still able to eat it. SO much for the miramar hotel outing.. instead we all went to a nice quiet japansese restaurant off bukit timah road.. but well its ok.. the company was good..

so much things happen at work.. more of the emotional.. a kind of heaviness is sinking in.. i'm leaving soon.. leaving my dearest ppl .. my dearest beloveds.. sigh...i wonder it'll be the same again.. people always say they keep in touch.. yet after that, we soon move on separate ways... separate ways.. just as life has decreed.. nothing's permanent.

sometimes i wonder if i'm just kinda oversensitive yet my heart glows in making ppl happy.. to see smiles on faces...while i can be a bitch at work.. i can be nice too.. a fren mention that when i smile i look demure.. heheh.. weird rite. got me thinking that i;m not .. yeah i guess wat's with the vulgarities that i;m spurting out like merlion on bad days i guess that scare ppl off.. guys off..oh well sometimes its just habit.. but yet i believe i;ve cut down tremendous in terms of temper, anger mgt and diarrhoe of vulgarities. its just so happen that on certain days i'm bound to spurt this uncontrollably.. hehe oh well..

jeez.. i'm like touching on points here and there while i skirt ard the issue.. wat issue could this be.. confused, happy, weird, thots of throwing daggers, jeez.. i'm weird...

was reading the letters/cards i've gotten from my AW coz.. notes which reminds me of ppl who love me and support me.. regardless of anything. the bond some of us shared .. and then "breakaway by kelly clarkson " played on.... things which remained permanently imbeded in the brain/memory while u know u cant seem to be able to catch up... Sad.. while life is like that yet there's ways to change that.. Just do it ~ nike's slogan.

just do it~ thats wat i did in many of a relationship gone failed.. yet i know i've learnt things ..i gained happiness moments which i give anything to relived them again... hurt hurt i know.. many a times i hope to give all this away.. yet.. by doing that means, i've giving up the happy moments those moments which i give anything to have them back.. its part of a parcel of life.. a cycle of life.. as wat in FMA said.. equivalent exchange trade... something along that line.. in order to gain somethin, you have to give up something...

Now "unpredictable by keisha chante" is playing..
Everytime I think were all right Why you gotta go and change your mind baby
Everything I do is for you Your unpredictable but I still love you baby
Thought I knew (I thought I knew)
I’m so confused (I'm so confused)
What’s goin on (what’s been going on?)
Where did we go wrong (where did we go wrong baby!)
.....and its like so like my life. not everything.. but well the confusion part.. hehehe...

To know that someone likes you and to know that you are falling still for him.. and to know those stuffs ppl talking behind/infront of him... and not wanting/knowing whether its true.. how do one proceed from here... do one just do the "Just do it" and ask upfront or do one allow times and listen to an advise of giving him more time..

Actuali all this should not matter.. coz mebe i'm just flirting wit that idea and it was a make-believe... if so, y does it matter so much the body language why it matters..

And now .. Never know i was losing you~ Westlife...
It's not for the first time
That someone else has hurt me
By faking it too long....Where did we go wrong, yeah

There came a crossing on the road, If only there were signs to show me
Which direction I should go, I live my life with no regrets
It hasn't caught up on me yet. But I never knew I was losing you

And now to finish up this and before i go to sleep the song is Sometimes by britney spears..
It's not that I don't want to stay;But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything you say;'Cause it sounds so good

Sometimes I run;Sometimes I hide; Sometimes I'm scared of you. But all I really want is to hold you tight; Treat you right, be with you day and night. Baby all I need is time.

I don't wanna be so shy;Every time that I'm alone I wonder why. Hope that you will wait for me. You'll see that you're the only one for me

If you love me, trust in me. The way that I trust in you

MySelf.Scorpio.Looks can be deceiving.Loving 100% when its given. May not looks like it but forgives easily. Fiercely competitive. Harsh words when provoke.





We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect





Broken once badly.Needs careful tending

Life continues.... equivalent exchange / 3:11 am

Wee.... i have my japanese cuisine again!! and this is like the 5th day in a row. God i'm kinda sick of sashimi but i think i'm still able to eat it. SO much for the miramar hotel outing.. instead we all went to a nice quiet japansese restaurant off bukit timah road.. but well its ok.. the company was good..

so much things happen at work.. more of the emotional.. a kind of heaviness is sinking in.. i'm leaving soon.. leaving my dearest ppl .. my dearest beloveds.. sigh...i wonder it'll be the same again.. people always say they keep in touch.. yet after that, we soon move on separate ways... separate ways.. just as life has decreed.. nothing's permanent.

sometimes i wonder if i'm just kinda oversensitive yet my heart glows in making ppl happy.. to see smiles on faces...while i can be a bitch at work.. i can be nice too.. a fren mention that when i smile i look demure.. heheh.. weird rite. got me thinking that i;m not .. yeah i guess wat's with the vulgarities that i;m spurting out like merlion on bad days i guess that scare ppl off.. guys off..oh well sometimes its just habit.. but yet i believe i;ve cut down tremendous in terms of temper, anger mgt and diarrhoe of vulgarities. its just so happen that on certain days i'm bound to spurt this uncontrollably.. hehe oh well..

jeez.. i'm like touching on points here and there while i skirt ard the issue.. wat issue could this be.. confused, happy, weird, thots of throwing daggers, jeez.. i'm weird...

was reading the letters/cards i've gotten from my AW coz.. notes which reminds me of ppl who love me and support me.. regardless of anything. the bond some of us shared .. and then "breakaway by kelly clarkson " played on.... things which remained permanently imbeded in the brain/memory while u know u cant seem to be able to catch up... Sad.. while life is like that yet there's ways to change that.. Just do it ~ nike's slogan.

just do it~ thats wat i did in many of a relationship gone failed.. yet i know i've learnt things ..i gained happiness moments which i give anything to relived them again... hurt hurt i know.. many a times i hope to give all this away.. yet.. by doing that means, i've giving up the happy moments those moments which i give anything to have them back.. its part of a parcel of life.. a cycle of life.. as wat in FMA said.. equivalent exchange trade... something along that line.. in order to gain somethin, you have to give up something...

Now "unpredictable by keisha chante" is playing..
Everytime I think were all right Why you gotta go and change your mind baby
Everything I do is for you Your unpredictable but I still love you baby
Thought I knew (I thought I knew)
I’m so confused (I'm so confused)
What’s goin on (what’s been going on?)
Where did we go wrong (where did we go wrong baby!)
.....and its like so like my life. not everything.. but well the confusion part.. hehehe...

To know that someone likes you and to know that you are falling still for him.. and to know those stuffs ppl talking behind/infront of him... and not wanting/knowing whether its true.. how do one proceed from here... do one just do the "Just do it" and ask upfront or do one allow times and listen to an advise of giving him more time..

Actuali all this should not matter.. coz mebe i'm just flirting wit that idea and it was a make-believe... if so, y does it matter so much the body language why it matters..

And now .. Never know i was losing you~ Westlife...
It's not for the first time
That someone else has hurt me
By faking it too long....Where did we go wrong, yeah

There came a crossing on the road, If only there were signs to show me
Which direction I should go, I live my life with no regrets
It hasn't caught up on me yet. But I never knew I was losing you

And now to finish up this and before i go to sleep the song is Sometimes by britney spears..
It's not that I don't want to stay;But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything you say;'Cause it sounds so good

Sometimes I run;Sometimes I hide; Sometimes I'm scared of you. But all I really want is to hold you tight; Treat you right, be with you day and night. Baby all I need is time.

I don't wanna be so shy;Every time that I'm alone I wonder why. Hope that you will wait for me. You'll see that you're the only one for me

If you love me, trust in me. The way that I trust in you